i can hear the fireworks

so fucking sad

WEH. 

YAYYYY

joshtime! 

so sad betsy johnson at valley gair is closing down. i was so devastated that i tried everything on, and then got only more heartbroken when i still couldn’t even buy the clearance stuff.

WEHHHH. 

fucking dress still fucking $180

hurts.

anyhway, we caught up, got a billion perfume samples, had ice cream sundaes, had an really open, educational conversation about sex, bought a skirt, drove around singing like depressed cats, and finally went home.

and then i sat in on judy’s accounting class earlier today, too! was super fun. we also spent like an hour lying almost-dead on a play-structure wailing songs that have been stuck in our heads, while children continued to frolic around our bodies.

going back to sf for a quick sec though! it’s iggy’s birthday thursday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and… i miss jon a lot. :I BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

and i just watched that →

okay honestly i love these time suck surveys, and i’m just gonna answer all the questions myself right now

THE RULES OF TUMBLR CAN SUCK IT

1. I AM CONFUSED because i can’t figure out why in the world i choose to let myself do all the dumb things i do.

2. yes i do c: it’s the sweetest thing.

3. there would be a discussion on house rules, like “not inside” and “not at whatever time..etc.” but it’s not ground to judge a person on. as long as it doesn’t obstruct relations, naturally. hopefully it’s not a huge moneysuck or takes up all our time together.

4. yes and no. in general yes, in a relationship no.

5. i was probs drunk at a friend’s partie by that time. LOL

6. omg ALL the horror movie paranoias. dark streets make me crazy nervous in my own head, man. sucks. ghost noises and white faces and dead bodies and shiet.

7. i hope i would cry, actually. i would want to be affected. i would want to realize the worth of my loving. and then, i would like to be honestly and genuinely challenged, with the decision of whether or not i can handle giving someone a second chance. in my own theory i can, but the irl scenario is a totally different thing.

8. i’ve been closer to him before, but the fam’s been stressed recently, and for a spread of reasons. i feel like the day he’ll really ever be happy again is the day i graduate from stanford with a business degree.

9. i did! and today too! i’m a lucky girl.

10. the sound of my brother’s sticky feet on the kitchen floor eew

11. i think before i became lactose-ish, i would’ve said milk, EVEN despite how it does exactly what you don’t want it to do on hot days. but now i theenk coke, or.. the ever-safe cold water, i guess.

12. it’s the strangest thing seeing mine on someone else. sweet, but strange. on me it really depends on who did it, and what i’m doing that day. LOL. hickeys are mostly weird.

13. it’s really dynamic, my sleep schedule. it’s early on boring days, and late on study and outsy days. still needs fixing. i nap way too much. tonight i’m up really late, but the recent nowaday has been keeping a pretty decent sleep pattern, thanks to jon. i always stay up late when i hang w judy tho. LOL

14. oh me me me!

15. i don’t think so

16. no. i forget a lot too though. i’m an atrocious texter though, everyone knows it.

17. i couldn’t truly hate anyone i’ve ever truly loved

18. um TONIGHT. hollaaa

19. probably not, honestly. LOL. but i mostly don’t really know because i’m taking the question hella literally. like if i was watching them give a speech and they had a raging booger, or if they were wearing like a hella beautiful shirt or something and i had one of those mad jealous horror movie zoom-in moments, or if they were holding a dead hamster, or if i was already sad, or if they just look older (in a sad way). the list goes on

2o. crap i’m drunk as boogers. also i guess imma send jon a text about how i’m a butterfly, and then forget i sent it tomorrow..

21. god i hope not

22. probs, but i never want to lean on that notion for anything

23. definitely not

24. definitely yes

25. yeah.. it’s silent tears now, and they come way too often. i had this phase where i would cry at every movie preview too.

26. my nighttie is this super uggo seafoam with little pimple-looking polkadot print

27. no it’s too short and dumb

28. i feel like yes but don’t even have a person in mind

29. not intimately, but maybe

30. i would think so

31. ma momma

32. if i thought real hard about it i might be able to blow on old embers, but who’d ever wanna make themselves angry over anything that was already so over 

33. yes! it’s funny because i’ve gone out with a bunch of younger dudes before. but neva kissed anyone suuuper older

34. oh crap 22 i think but i suck at numbers

35. hell NO i’m not about to count

36. vaguely.. gonna make it FUNN THOUGHHH

37. yes? it seems those always change though. but i do feel like i get along better with guys than gals

38. probs, tbh. no one tells everything.

39. i can’t think of any

40. yes

41. it sometimes depends more on how ready the younger person is, more than the gap itself.. and like what the general frame is. a 20yr and a 30yr is somehow a kittle weirder than a 30yr and a 40yr

42. not at the moment!

43. threeeeeee? four? haha, OR NONE. OOOOH.

44. omg fucken lip. MMMMNUMNUMNUM

45. i do, but i’m told i’m stupid for it

46. yes. i’m a person largely built by regret. but i’m getting over it. 

47. how late it is LOL. and how much i miss ma boyyyy

48. not to anything illness or death related, but yes. to high school. LOL

49. nuh-uh :D ‘least i don think so!

50. n/a muthabietch

51. way too many timessss LOL

52. yeah. LOL

53. this spinach crepe thing from ihop—it had really delicious cheese on it. HAHAHA.

54. yeahhhhh kinda—but i’m not sure

55. seattle

56. everything be made in china

57. i’m actually not sure at all

58. san jofuckingse

59. HAHA

60. no, but it sounds fun!

61. no but we got TP’d before. my parents collected the paper and used it for cleaning. LOL

62. jon!

63. the five-year engagement. it was pretty cute, i gotta admit. and it was in sf!

64. ME. jk. i don’t know for sure, nor would i want to speak for anyone on that 

65. ionno like 1 LOL

66. no. thank goodness.

67. cannot ever.

68. not extremely

69. i used to be crazy about collecting way more things. like scarves, and socks, and boxes, and business cards, and EVERYTHING. i was a major hoarder. but it’s eased down now. i still get like 50 straws whenever i go to mcdonalds though.

ok not finished LOL

BBL

HEY YEAH HI

• 1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?
• 2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?
• 3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?
• 4: Do you find it easy to trust others?
• 5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?
• 6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?
• 7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?
• 8: Are you close with your dad?
• 9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?
• 10: What are you listening to?
• 11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?
• 12. Do you like hickeys?
• 13: What time do you go to bed?
• 14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
• 15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?
• 16: Do you always answer your texts?
• 17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?
• 18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
• 19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
• 20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
• 21: Is anyone else in the room with you?
• 22: Do you believe what goes around comes around?
• 23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?
• 24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?
• 25: In the past week, have you cried?
• 26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?
• 27: Do people ever call you by your last name?
• 28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?
• 29: Do you have a best friend?
• 30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?
• 31: Who was your last call from?
• 32: Are you mad at anyone?
• 33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
• 34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?
• 35: How many more days until your birthday?
• 36: Do you have any summer plans yet?
• 37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?
• 38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?
• 39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?
• 40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
• 41: Do you think age matters in relationships?
• 42: Are you available?
• 43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?
• 44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?
• 45: Do you believe exes can be friends?
• 46: Do you regret anything?
• 47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?
• 48: Did you ever lose a best friend?
• 49: Was your last kiss a mistake?
• 50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?
• 51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?
• 52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?
• 53: What was the last thing you ate?
• 54: Did you get any compliments today?
• 55: Where are you going on your next vacation?
• 56: Do you own anything from other countries?
• 57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?
• 58: Where have you lived most of your life?
• 59: When was the last time you took a long drive?
• 60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?
• 61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?
• 62: Who do you text the most?
• 63: What was the last movie you saw?
• 64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?
• 65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2010?
• 66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?
• 67: Do you curse around your parents?
• 68: Are you happy with where you live?
• 69: Do you collect anything?
• 70: What’s your favourite colour?
• 71: Does the last song you listened to remind you of anyone?
• 72: Has anyone ever cheated on you?
• 73: What are your plans for tomorrow?
• 74: Do you have siblings over the age of twenty-one?
• 75: Does your last ex have a job?
• 76: What would you do if you found out your most recent ex was in a relationship?
• 77: Where is your cellphone?
• 78: What colour is your cellphone?
• 79: What did you dream of last night?
• 80: Are you atheist?
• 81: Will you change your name when you get married?
• 82: Are you ready for autumn weather?
• 83: Have you had any big storms recently?
• 84: What kind of bottoms are you wearing?